I'm in great need of some fancy talking and putting on the charm. I have been so nervous when talking on the phone to prospective employers.

"Let there be magic in your smile and firmness in your handshake."

Usually I am very confident when its comes to interviews but lately I've really been off my game. I think part of the problem was that it was a phone interview and I'm a vibes person. I need to be in the same room with a person to get a feel for the kind of person they are. The good thing is, people who interview me are usually impressed with the professional way I present myself.

Wish me luck...

Well, I've come this far...

Sorry folk, I've been so busy applying for jobs that I completely forgot to blog yesterday. It's been crazy, but I'll make this one extra special.

"Your everlasting patience will be rewarded sooner or later."

I have really tried to have so much patience and not loose hope while applying for jobs, even though I have not received any bites at all. However, a friend from school woke me up early this morning with a call telling me that she just got a job with hospice (which is exactly what I want to do.) She told me all about how this particular hospice was hiring new grads. I just need to keep hope in myself and keep praying.
The best thing about this opportunity is that it has patients in the same county I would like to live in. I just really hope that this patience will pay off and I will be rewarded with this particular job.

Until tomorrow...

Spice of Life

What's in store for me? This is one of the times in my life where I really wish I could look into the future and see where I'll be in 10 years. I've always been one of those girls who needs a little adventure in her life. I'm constantly looking for new opportunities and adventures, especially in San Francisco. I have one of those minds that works a mile a minute and can come up with half a dozen great ideas while in the shower.

"Grand adventures await those who are willing to turn the corner."

This might have something to do with my plan to work far away, commute wise. I'm still unsure about moving away from here since I have NO credit history and I'm so pathetic in terms of financial planning. That's where my boyfriend and I complete each other. I probably won't be looking farther than an hour away from where I want to live. I have all this fear. I'm just afraid of having to live in my car or something.

Baby steps...

Maybe its time for a new approach

So I went and visited a long time friend of mine today who has been away at school for a while, I got into a conversation with her mom about places I could apply for a job and she gave me a great idea that hadn't really crossed my mind before.

"The secret of getting ahead is getting started."


All this time I have been looking for a job within this area. No more than an hour's drive from where I live now but I need to look for a job within an hour's drive from where I want to live. My friend's mom gave me the suggestion of just applying anywhere and commuting to that job for 1 year and during that year look for other jobs closer to home. Well, what she actually suggested was that I move out of state/area for a year and just apply for ANYTHING. I mean I have a boyfriend and we are loyal to each other and love each other very much. We'd definitely miss each other but it would only be for a year.
When I saw my fortune I thought to myself, "I have all these dreams and expectations from my life, how will I ever achieve them?" So if I'm so desperate for a job I just need to take anything. I mean I have a few under the table opportunities coming up that I can get experience from and use my clients as references.
I mean, everyone starts somewhere right? I just need to get my foot in that door. Especially since there's no way my boyfriend and I will be able to afford a house or a wedding anytime soon.

Keep me motivated Fortune Cookie...

So I didn't post yesterday because I was out of town for the weekend. I went camping with my family and some friends from our church. One thing I love about this group of people is that everyone is so loving and caring and everyone watches out for one another. And best of all I get along with them. I don't like high maintenance people and these people are anything but high maintenance.

"You have an unusually magnetic personality."

I don't have a whole lot of patience usually, especially not for teenagers that bring their hair straightener and find it necessary to text while camping. Despite my low patience and dislike for many people I do have alot of friends, including people from church and from school. Interesting enough, my charm extends mostly to those 40+, especially those 65+.  So I guess one could say I have an old soul.

Until tomorrow Fortune Cookie...

Things I've had to work on

A while back I agreed to make some changes to myself regarding my attitude and reaction. I agreed to try to be more patient, more generous, not be such a perfectionist when it came to my relationship, among other things.

"Generosity and perfection are your everlasting goals."

I'm assuming this is meaning I need to be more giving in my relationship with my boyfriend. i shouldn't pressure him into doing things that are too terribly inconvenient for him. I should allow him more time to do what he wants. He's been wanting to program the game ideas he has in his head, and he should since he is extremely talented.
I am a perfectionist, I am a perfectionist to the point of controlling. I need to have it my way, the way it is envisioned in my head. I don't know how I have this talent to play out a scenario in my head and imagine how it should be. I think the type of perfection the fortune cookie was referring to was perfecting my generosity. I've been working hard to keep up my side of the pact we had made.

Until tomorrow fortune cookie...

So make a chicken omlette?

Ever heard the phrase, "Never count your chickens before they've hatched."?

"It is better to have a hen tomorrow than an egg today."

I'm assuming that this means it is better to wait for the egg to become a hen so that you can have eggs everyday instead of eating the only hatching egg you have. A similar analogy would be to save up a large amount of money that collects alot of interest and spend the interest. Or in a more down to earth analogy might be to plant a vegetable garden and eat from it instead of eating the seeds.

That last example is what I intend to do. I've always wanted a vegetable garden and some fruit trees. I'd like a fig tree, a peach tree, pumpkins, squashes, carrots, potatoes, lettuce maybe, and also an herb garden. I'm one of those save the planet kind of girls.

Hen tomorrow...

So happy together...

The one thing I've been really wanting for my future is to be happy and love my boyfriend forever. After spending the weekend together for my birthday I realized I wanted nothing more than to be with him forever.

"You and your wife will be happy in your life together."

Well I don't have a wife and don't intend on having a wife (except in the unlikely case that my boyfriend dies, I don't think I could love any other man.)
But just for the sale of argument I'm reinterpreting the word wife to actually be spouse. My boyfriend and I have been talking about saving up for a house together, talking about decorating plans, talking about wedding plans. The wedding plans have been on the back burner since we both agreed that starting our adult lives together seemed more important since both of us still live at home. I was debating on weather or not I should have my own place first but decided that it would be a waste of money since I'd just be over at his place all the time anyways.
Last night he was having some doubts about his future and where to go from here. I assured him we would be okay. We have our love and we keep each other motivated.
I know I've said this before but I really just want and simple and quiet life. I don't want a mansion or a bunch of cars or scads of expensive jewelry or anything like that. I don't even want children. I just want a quiet, clean home with enough space for two people two live life and enjoy hobbies, maybe do a little bit of traveling.
It's nice to know my fortune cookie is there to back me up.

And we'll live happily ever after...

Took a 2 day sabatical since I cheated on 2 days

It was only fair since my fortune cookies were irked with me since I opened 3 cookies on one day. For today's cookie I was rewarded for my patience with 2 fortunes.

"You should not return to the past to revive and old relationship."

"You have an ability to sense and know higher truth."

No one has to tell me twice on the first one, there are only 3 people in my past that I despise enough to never want to talk to ever again. As a matter of fact when I do see them I make a point of avoiding them. The one other guy I dated is a drug addict. I have had a few short flings over the years, nothing serious, and I never talk to the person ever again. Except with one, he and I are VERY close and my sister and I are also very close with his sister. To my surprise I have... feelings for him when I spend time with him. It was our mutual agreement many years ago to break off the affair and we've remained friends. My boyfriend is aware of my past feelings and I've assured him he has nothing to worry about. I intend to keep to myself.

In the ability to sense and know higher truth I have a very good judge of character and when I interview for jobs I shall keep that in mind. I once interviewed for a home health job as an aide for elderly people. My boss would have been a quite voluptuous woman who wore too much makeup, fake nails from Walmart, a rose tattoo on her breast, among other unsavory elements. I don't think that environment would have been very professional.
Also I've always been very observational and attentive. I notice things about people that others don't and I'm able to make a judge of character. Not psychic, just smart.

Finally!!! A fortune cookie thats not just a cute cookie.

I have to admit that I've been pretty skeptical about this whole fortune cookie thing since I've been getting so many empty ones. But this one I'd actually listen to... because it told me to listen to it.

"Many receive advice, only the wise profit by it."

I guess its time to look back at my past fortunes and analyse which ones I have actually profited by.
Day 1: You will have a long and healthy life. I don't know about me, since I'm pretty healthy but today I was able to recognize pneumonia in an older adult, which is impressive since its not always your run of the mill fever and cough. Its more of confusion, wet lung sounds and shakiness. She'll be fine, she went to the hospital.
Day 2: Be tactful; overlook not your own opportunity. Well today gave me a little bit of assessment and critical thinking practice. Its something interesting that I can talk about in my interview to personalize it and show more of my true self in an interview which is my great love and compassion for older people and my amazing assessment skills; which are top notch by the way. Once the older adult I mentioned is home from the hospital I might have the opportunity to care for her in her home which would be good experience.
Day 3: Sell your ideas; they are totally acceptable. Not only is this blog a good example of that but I have been giving advice to friends about how to better their lives just a little bit with diet, organization, motivation, among other things.
Day 5: The great pleasure in life is doing what people say you cannot do. AND your future is as boundless as the lofty heaven. I know I stand in front of my future with so many ideas and values and ideals. But my life is filled with endless possibilities and I welcome it.
Day 6: You should be able to make money and hold onto it. I have been saving and being thrifty. I have also been trying to help my boyfriend save money too so that we can start our life together soon. I used to be a compulsive shopper, especially in thrift stores. But I recently went in and saw lots of things I would have liked to have but held them in my hand and logically talked myself out of buying it by recognizing that I had no need for that thing. Aren't you proud of me? I've been watching Hoarders on A&E.
Day 8: Your life will be happy and peaceful. I've been keeping to myself, being generous and asking for nothing in return. I want and simple and quiet life with my boyfriend and I want a pet rabbit and a quiet space to do yoga in every day.
Day 9: You will always be successful in your professional career. I have been my family's private nurse for sometime that every one comes to for questions and advice. I've taken care of family members and will continue to care for them. If I can do that, I will be successful in life. Of that I am sure.

Until tommorow fortune cookie... and no cheating next time.

Cheaters never win...

So I grabbed a fortune cookie just like any other morning and broke it in half...NO FORTUNE. Really? Are we going to do this again. I was semi frustrated so I grabbed another cookie and broke it open...NO FORTUNE.

I saw this second empty cookie and laughed. I ate the two cookies and continued on with my morning.
A little later on I walked by the fortune cookie box again and jumped on it. Like I was going to surprize the box and get a cookie with a fortune. Nope. Again no fortune. I was really meant to NOT get a fortune.

I guess this is karma for not liking my last 2 fortunes.

And there isn't much but fun due for today anyways.

So I should watch what I say?

How is this supposed to make me feel? My whole life I've blocked most people from my inner self...my real inner self. And now the fortune cookie is telling me to,

"Watch your relations with other people carefully, be reserved."

There are only a select group of people who really know me well. And only 2 people who know me completely. I just don't let people in that easily. People get glimpses, photographs of my inner self but not enough to hold anything against me. The select group of people could hold things against me. But the 2 that know me completely just won't, at least not for an extended period. I give too much to them for them to hold grudges. But I suppose just to be on the safe side I should post less incriminating things in semipublic places and speak nothing ill to those I think ill of. Merely politics.


Ok Fortune Cookie...what now?